You don’t know how many times you hurt me and how many times I tried to ignore it. Honestly, I see no hope in you anymore. I wish things didn’t end up this way but it did. I’m not going to care about you anymore because that’s probably the safest thing to do now.

I am my own worst enemy

I put myself down so much that it’s not even funny anymore. It’s like I never fail to make myself feel like shit. Insecurities suck big time but I can’t help it.

Sorry, i’m not the best.

I’m not perfect. I make mistakes. I can’t always be there when someone needs me. I can’t be the person you want me to be. I’m trying. I don’t want to disappoint anyone but it seems like I constantly do anyways.

Honestly

I don’t like people who tries too hard to fit in. I like people who are down to earth, people who are proud to show who they truely are. I like people are aren’t quick to judge. I like people who are down to do almost anything. I like people who are adventurous.

Life.

Life is about finding yourself. It’s about exploring the unknown. Life is about experiencing the love, the pain, the happy and the sad. You’re never going to have a safe, happy journey. There’s always going to be obsticales that prevent you from reaching your goals. You have to be brave. You have to fight for what you love.

It’s amazing, how one person can mean so much to you. How all it takes is one person to make or break your day, to put a smile on your face and make you want to cry. How one person is able to change your mood effortlessly, whether it be with their words or their unintended actions. What’s even more amazing is how one stranger can turn into a once familiar stranger, from someone whom you’d wish you had met earlier, to someone whom you’d wish to never have met.

Do you know why she chooses to stay with the guy who hurt her? Cause despite that, he knows how to make her happy. There may be cuter guys out there, but she doesn’t care about that cause to her, nobody can compare. He does more right things than wrong so she stays with him for all the right things he’s done and not leave him for that one mistake. And she knows no matter who she ends up with, they’re gonna fight regardless and she would rather deal with no one else, but him

You tend to tell people that you’re fine, but deep inside, you’re really not. And you try to convince yourself and others that you really are, when the truth is, something is slowly eating you up alive. But you continue to put on a façade that nothing’s wrong. All you want is someone that you can reach out to. Because you alone, can only go so far.

I’m so blessed. That’s all i’m going to say. I thank life for everything, even the bad, it only made me stronger.

Dreaming

I wish I can just get away from everything. I never have my own, clear spot to clear my head. I want to go to a place where there is no drama. My own version of a fantasy or something. I want to be in a place filled with positive vibes. I want to go to a place where I can be 100% happy. I want to get away from reality and just set it aside. But too bad we live in a crappy world filled with crappy people.